Secret Cwang

I seriously just don’t understand how bitchy girls can get boyfriends and I can’t. I truly can’t comprehend it. I’m like one of the nicest girls out there and I’m not ugly. So why don’t I have one? God this is depressing, haha. It really sucks cuz I never ask for anything, not even from my parents and the one thing I truly want, I can’t have…FUCK :’(

is tomorrow.. I’m excited but I feel like I could be more excited or I should be more excited. If I wasn’t so upset then I would be a lot more excited. It totally sucks that the way that I’m feeling is holding me back from truly looking forward to my big day. Though I shouldn’t make a big deal out of a birthday cuz after all, it’s just a birthday. The day I was born. I don’t really see what’s too special about it. But whatever. I guess it’s just an excuse to feel like a princess, hehe. I’m just trying not to expect too much out of the day so when or if it doesn’t reach my expectations, I don’t feel like a total shit head like i usually do. Oh well, we’ll see what happens. I still hope it is a good day because I could use many good days.

My secret blog where I can putmy secret naughty stufffs and whatnot hehehehheehehehe